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Thanks for response! happy to hear you're up and walking! tho with a boot. but id take a boot. I'm dreaming of standing up in a shower. ahhh. your tibia broke long ways along the bone?! damn. that's scary!
My tibia and fibula snapped along the top of the boot, so right across the lower middle shin. i did have surgery but they only used a few pins (as far as I know) to reattach the tibia. If writing wasn't going to work out, I've thought about going back to school to be a physical therapist. so I'm actually sort of looking forward to that process of recovery. And with yoga I'm always pushing the physical comfort boundaries of my muscles and joints, so recovery will just be that, except a lot more painful and much smaller movements. no word on how long yet, but everyone is saying 6 to 8 weeks til the leg can bear weight again.
I know what you mean about how it looked right after the accident. I keep having scary flashbacks to when they took the ice skating boot off. I held my foot and shook it and it flopped around in my hands. It was nearly a 24 hour wait for surgery where my phone was dead. I kept asking for more opiates to be injected into my arm. That's all anyone could do to help me.
tough transition right now to say the least. I'm typically very active with yoga and I love long walks so it's hard to give that up. I can't believe how tiring using crutches is. Thankfully because of the yoga I'm flexible and pretty good at balancing, so it makes dealing with a leg stuck straight a bit easier. Tomorrow night it'll have been a week since surgery and today is the first day I've felt like myself.
I'm thinking of it as a meditative exercise. In class we'll silently chant "i am, i am, i am." and anything I put after that, I am good at yoga! I am beautiful! I am broken! I am alone! those are all missing the point, and those aren't me. the point is "i am." i am very vain and i am always so wound up with boys. a lot of my personality has been built around my appearance and the attention I'm used to, so it's sort of nice to have a not-too-long-really period of reflection to examine what actually, I am.
It's nice to see friends step up to help me and to think of how important those few friends are. It's all about whose names I wrote on a napkin when I was alone in the ER and my phone was nearly dead.
I'd been super down this past week cause the leg hurt too much to do anything more than barely make it to the bathroom and back to bed. but luckily it's feeling a fair bit better. I'm going back to Ohio the 21st n gonna spend some extra time with my parents - get some of that good family love.
Ohh! and and then today, I came up with a new tv show idea that's really fun! So instead of thinking of these next weeks as recovery time - it's actually Walden pond seclusion writing month! Hopefully I can have something close to a first draft by the time I'm able to drive my car again.
Congrats on starting your book!! that's exciting. I thank all that is good for being a writer - the magic ability to turn pain into connection. "I'm a magician. Writing is one of the tricks that I do."
In other news, I signed the papers for a lease on a super great apartment. and Matt loved the new pilot and is gonna send it out to production companies. so outside of my room the world is moving.
Ill be writing periodically. you're now my broken leg/insane full leg cast mentor so stand by
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